By Linda Keene
When asked to contribute to this blog, every thought that came to my mind told me I was not in any way, shape or form, qualified to do so. The battle within my mind became a real war zone. The enemy began to attack like never before. Then the Lord reminded me that I was someone who had discovered deep within the recesses of my being, the desire to stand by His side and fight the battle against the enemy on behalf of my sisters. He reminded me of my spiritual responsibility.
I had to expose myself, be real and lean into the truth of who God says I am. Is that not the struggle every one of us women face at one time or another in our own lives? Exposing ourselves to our peers and hoping to be accepted and loved, in spite of our sins and flaws. It is so much easier if we simply appear to have it all together, then in the respite of our homes, let our hair down and become the person we really are. Satan has taken control of our minds long enough with this lie!
For years, I struggled with knowing my purpose in life; my calling. I had always related my calling to whatever job and/or position I held at the time. When the Lord placed me in a situation foreign to me, I began to flounder. I began to feel restless and exposed. I thought I had things figured out, but as my world began to change, I realized how much I had been in control, not Him. I had to trust Him on a new level, deeper than I ever had. I had grown up in a “religious” home. I did all of the “things” right. I was at church every time the doors were open, Bible in hand. I “appeared” to be a Godly Christian, but when I returned home and took off my pretty clothes, the ugly of who I actually was took over. I was going through the motions, but certainly not being obedient to His word or living a life of humility, as I should have. When the Lord took everything I knew as normal away, I began to panic. Thankfully, I began to search for Him as well.
Coming to the realization of what I was actually put on this earth to do came slowly. I went through the process of regret and repentance for what seemed like years. Then, when I read James 4:7-12 in The Message version, I knew how to find my true calling in life. It reads: “So let God work His will in you. Yell a loud no to the devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and He’ll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it’s the only way you’ll get on your feet. ”
I began to get serious, really serious about submitting my life to the Lord every day. I began to search His word like I never had before. The words came to life. I began to feel an indescribable peace and an insatiable hunger for God like I had never felt before in my life. I now look forward to how He is going to speak to me through His word each morning. There are times I literally have to yell “NO” out loud to the devil; quite a few actually! When he does try to creep back in my mind, but I remember the voice God gave me and do not hesitate to use it.
One morning in particular, God opened my eyes to the revelation of why “I had been born for such a time as this”, as is written in Esther 4:14. I had just read 1 Corinthians 11:9 NLT, “And man was not made for woman, but woman was made for man.” I began to tremble with excitement on the insight He was showing me. Here is exactly what the Lord told as I wrote in my journal:
“Just as the woman carried and gave birth to the Savior of the Universe, we, as women, carry the potential to change the course and bring about revival. Why do you think men have become so distracted, Linda? Women have had to step up and become both mother and father AND provider. This will keep them (women) too busy to realize their spiritual responsibility.”
Once this sunk into the core of my being, I realized the depth of the calling that was placed upon me, simply because I am a woman. I was created to search and know my Heavenly Father on such a deep level, that He would reveal to me the knowledge of the actual depth of my being. I have within me, the potential to create revival among the world, one person at a time! Should we women decide to put aside the persona of who we are, redirect the business of our lives and take the chance of exposing ourselves, can you imagine the effect? Should we decide to devote ourselves to really getting serious about knowing, hearing from and doing the will of the Lord, can you imagine the effect it would have on generations to come?
Women, we have a spiritual responsibility. If we fail to link arms and bear the burden of our spiritual responsibility, it will happen just as Mordecai told Esther should she have chosen to keep silent…“relief and deliverance will come from elsewhere AND her and her father’s house would perish”. I don’t know about you, but I want to see revival within my sphere of influence! I want women to realize their God-given potential to change the atmosphere of their children, their marriages, their friends, their neighbors AND their enemies. I want to be a part of the relief and deliverance within my own sisterhood. My prayer is that as you have read these words, you too will begin realize the potential you carry simply because you were made a woman. That you too, will ask Him for a greater hunger for the Word, the like you have never had before.